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shredding it: day one (hello jillian!)


i started Day One of jillian michaels' workout dvd yesterday
and i gotta say this, she DID kick my butt!
i was at the gym for almost a month before i even started with jillian's
workout so i didn't actually expect to have a hard time with her
but when i started with her moves, i gotta burns.
her routines were not even hard at all. they were actually pretty
simple and basic.
but what keeps it burning is that she never let you stop.
i can't even believe how she managed to workout AND talk at the same time!
its a continuous 20+ minute workout that alternates cardio, strength
and abs.

on the other side, i realized that maybe i was using the wrong hand
weights. i currently have a pair of 3-kg weights that is roughly equivalent
to around 6.6 lbs.
of course, with a body like mine, those are just pretty okay and light.
but when i used them while doing the shred moves, dang!
seemed like they're more than enough.

but i dunno. i'll be …

ME? getting married?!? hmmm...

warning: emo post ahead... =) you have been warned.

every now and then people would ask me,
"don't you wanna get married someday?"
and almost all the time, they won't get a straight answer.

oftentimes, i would give them some long, excruciating
details why i don't ever want to get married.
and sometimes i would tell them some of the many
reasons why i want and need to get married.
but most of the time, all they can get from me is some
form of body language...

a sigh
a nod
a confused look
a wink
a raised eyebrow
rolling eyes (my faverit)

or simply a shrug.

'coz no matter what type of body language i used in a particular time,
i realized that at the end of of the day, the real answer all comes down to...


you know, God has blessed me with so many things.
some of them were great, while the rest are just what others
would consider petty stuff.

but for me, life is so good right now.
of course there are STILL those times
that i get pissed off with this or got freaked off by…

...things that changed

...when i became a mom

2. i became a shopaholic. (slight)

for kid stuff!
trust me, LOTS of things changed when i became a mom.
but never in a million years did i imagine this to be included in that list.
i was never into shopping before.
i even had some personal stuff and clothes from waaay back in college that i still use and wear,all because i don't shop for new ones AND i don't have the luxury to do so.

but the thing is, when it comes to E (ezra) i tend to spend way MORE than i can afford!
like i said, i was never into shopping before so im used to having just a
little cash everytime i go out. and guess what? i didn't have any problem
with it whatsoever.
but now, i realized, a little cash won't do no good everytime we go out.
i need to have at least more than enough for transpo, food, kiddie rides,
rent for car/stroller ride, snacks here and there, and for some random
kid stuff/clothes/toy that we might lay our eyes on along the way. (heh!)
so with all that, sadly, some little c…


YEP! it was confirmed.
i DID lost five freakin' pounds! (yay!) and not just that, i think i lost MORE than 5 lbs.
it wasn't a digital scale so i find it hard to get the exact reading.
whew! those breath-taking aerobics and cardio plus program did work out for me.
anyway, like i said, im gonna try this workout program in a few days for 30 straight days
and also, im gonna be posting some regular updates on that one, so better stick around!
til then... ciao! :)

Getting Fit: An update

alrightee. im gonna keep this short and sweet. :)

i know i didn't give you my starting stats when i started this getting fit
journey (sorry 'bout that)
but still, i wasn't able to get those numbers ready.
when i enrolled at the gym, they took my measurements and all but
unfortunately, i don't remember them.
but don't worry, il try to take get them soon and post 'em here, alryt?

anyway, off to the update.
i stepped on the scale last night and if the scale wasn't playing with me,
im happy to share that i lost almost five freaking pounds (5 lbs!)! hehe
my starting weight was taken mid april (april 17)
and being at the gym (although, off and on) for almost a month
took five pounds off my bod! (yay!)

anyway, since work is hard and ive been having problems sneaking off
afterwork to visit the gym, i decided to try another form of workout.
so, by next week, im gonna try the most talked-about jillian micheals
30 day shred workout!
what's great about it is that each workout sessi…

throw that tantrum!

lemme share with you an article i stumbled upon earlier tonight.
all parents get to experience this behavior at certain stages of our child's some point, we find ourselves so helpless and short-tempered
that scenarios like these often end up ugly for both the child and the parent.
personally, i am guilty of this. oftentimes, i just give in to the punk's demand just so he
would stop whining and shut up. and i admit, there's almost always the guilt afterwards.
but anyway, here's one of the thousands of articles online that can help you deal
with those dreaded tantrums.
by Gopi Patel of Ebeanstalk
The truth is tantrums are a LEARNED behavior. Even if it just happens once
the child learns that when I cry, scream, throw myself on the floor—kicking
and arms in every direction, “I WILL GET MY WAY”. Tantrums usually occur when a child wants something and is frustrated because
she can’t have it right away. When this happens parents usually give into the
tantrum because…

pursuit of happyness

last night, i've read a few inspiring stories that i thought were too beautiful
and inspiring not to share.

some of you (who have read my posts) might have noticed that most of my past
entries were grounded on life's anxieties and worries. some were even focused
on complaints and (unnecessary) rants.

take for example this post.

but now, after some inspiring stories and posts from one of the most inspiring
preacher i know, i've come to really accept and believe a well-preached
and known fact:

happiness is, and always be, a CHOICE.

no matter what you have or where you are or what you are or whatever life
throws at you, the choice to be happy is totally yours. and under any
circumstance you can be happy if you allow yourself to feel it.

lemme tell you story...
One morning, a woman was sad when she faced the mirror. She discovered
she only had 3 strands of hair on her head. Suddenly, she smiled. “Today,” she
said, “I’ll braid my hair!” And after doing so, she walked out of her home and

goals, goals, goals

wanna keep these on the record.
at least i'll have a reminder in black and white.

1. save.

ive had this savings account that i wanted to dedicate for emergency/child fund.
i did saved up for a moment, but before i know it almost all the money's gone.
better start saving up again ASAP.

2. pay debts

i have credit card debts. im not ashamed to admit it. (well, slightly. )
you can't blame me. im a single mom and my pay sucks.
sometimes i ran out of cash. it happens. and it happens a LOT.
so where do you think i ran to? the magic card.
but im gonna pay off those debts before its too late. hopefully.

3. lose weight, be healthy, stay fit

again, im a single mom. and my baby is two years old.
and i can't even begin to imagine if something not good will happen to me.
gotta do it. and besides, a lighter and sexier me looks much better right? :D

okey. that will be all for NOW.
il get back to you when i can think of some more.
as if these 3 are not enough... :D

goodluck to me!

this is one of those times.

i always blab about the things i love
about being a mom and the things that
changed when i became one. but i realized,
all this time i've been brushing off the things
that i missed and missed out.
the things that i should be doing,
the things that i could've done,
and the things that i could do
if i didn't become one.

one of these things is traveling.

every now and then i hear stories from
relatives, friends, classmates, and
acquaintances about their journeys
around the country and around world.
they show off pictures, videos, souvenirs
and memories from these travels.

some of them get to work at far and
foreign places, experiencing other cultures,
meeting other people, learning new things,
exploring new things, experiencing
anything and their lives.

then i look at myself.
i think of the things i have done
things that i haven't accomplished
things that ive wanted to do
places that ive wanted to go
experiences that ive wanted to go through.

and i sig…

so you think you won?

you know how some people say that in
every breakup there's always a winner
and a loser?

maybe there really is.

sometimes you feel--and you just know--
that you ARE the luckiest and happiest
person on earth.

and it feels like you did win.

but on some days when shit happens,
you just feel otherwise.

sadly. this is one of those days.


Get it started!


i don't know when. or how.
but i know i'll get it started.
and im gonna get it started SOON.

so please, just stay with me.
coz trust me, im gonna need ALL the help (and encouragement) i can get.

Look at me Mom!

isn't he adorable? :D

The AFTER look

a lot fresher, right?

i know, i know. his hair is a bit messy on that shot. he just finished doing some dives and flips
on our bed. hence, the messy hair. but if he was behave, you can see that the haircut actually
fits him. his face looks fresher, chubbier, and more manly(?).

oh and, his scratches are starting to heal. i still have to apply some cream though,
for them to totally heal. :)

Finally, a decent CUT


after sometime, i finally found the extra time to actually bring ezra back to the
salon for a decent haircut.
for the past week or so, he's been starting to have allergic reactions to this long hair.
it has already grown past his ears that they start to get itchy that he got some
scratches in both ears.

so this afternoon, we're heading to the salon to get him another fair cut.
hopefully, all these scratches will heal and he'll feel better and a lot fresher.

oh, and here's his latest look.

if you noticed, the hair on the sides are touching his ears (some strands are even
touching the "insides" of his ears). and this made his ears all itchy and irritated.

and the bangs. i just made sure that they're on the sides, or else it'll cover his eyes.

anyways, will be posting the "after" look. so stay tuned. ;D

Ezra turned TWO!

january 27, 2009

a very late post.
and a very short one. :)

...with his balloons

...with his cake

... with his first drumset (mommy's gift ;D)


SuperMOM 101

is basically a list of random stuff about me (yeah, boo!)
i figured since i don't make new year's resolutions, then i might just try this.
anyway, some of these facts are not even known by my family or close friends.
heck, i didnt even know them myself until sometime ago.

so if you're reading this, then you're one lucky SOB!
you've just stumbled upon the skeletons in my small closet.

please. im just KIDDING! :p
on the "lucky" part and of course, on the "SOB" part. *wink*
seriously, it took me sometime to figure these things out. and it actually involved a lot of
thinking and reflecting and laughing and a bit of crying...

i didn't realize "101" is a pretty large number, and making a list with that count is friggin' long.
so just a warning, this is gonna be a pretty long one (at least longer that most of my previous posts).

Anyway, enough of the chitchat, i bring to you folks...SuperMom Facts 101
(In no particular order, of course) :)

1. most …

when you're a MOM

t's quite amazing how it comes so naturally...
the worrying
the anxiety
the uneasiness
the pain
and the FEAR
when your little one is not in your arms.

knowing you are not there, and will not be there
when he learns a new game
when he utters a new word or two
when he laughs
when he grows up
and you're just not there. with him. all the time.

oh, yeah. damn right im scared.
but what scares and hurts me more is the fact that he still is a child
with childish moments.
crying and whining moments that none of the people around him could understand
moments where he needs the patience, tolerance, and acceptance of a mother.
but no, im not there.
instead, he's left with an upset, irritated, hot-tempered, stay-at-home-for-the-moment-coz-he's-jobless babysitter.

and just because he's a crybaby or crankier than most kids his age,
that still doesn't give him or a anyone the right to discipline him (if you equate hitting/spanking with discipline!) their own way!!!
i admit im no righteous, saintly,…