SuperMOM in Training

...when i became a mom 2. i became a shopaholic . (slight) for kid stuff! trust me, LOTS of things changed when i became a mom. but never in a million years did i imagine this to be included in that list. i was never into shopping before. i even had some personal stuff and clothes from waaay back in college that i still use and wear,all because i don't shop for new ones AND i don't have the luxury to do so. but the thing is, when it comes to E (ezra) i tend to spend way MORE than i can afford! like i said, i was never into shopping before so im used to having just a little cash everytime i go out. and guess what? i didn't have any problem with it whatsoever. but now, i realized, a little cash won't do no good everytime we go out. i need to have at least more than enough for transpo, food, kiddie rides, rent for car/stroller ride, snacks here and there, and for some random kid stuff/clothes/toy that we might lay our eyes on along the way. (heh!) so with all tha...

wanna keep these on the record. at least i'll have a reminder in black and white. 1. save . ive had this savings account that i wanted to dedicate for emergency/child fund. i did saved up for a moment, but before i know it almost all the money's gone. better start saving up again ASAP. 2. pay debts i have credit card debts. im not ashamed to admit it. (well, slightly. ) you can't blame me. im a single mom and my pay sucks. sometimes i ran out of cash. it happens. and it happens a LOT. so where do you think i ran to? the magic card . but im gonna pay off those debts before its too late. hopefully. 3. lose weight, be healthy, stay fit again, im a single mom. and my baby is two years old. and i can't even begin to imagine if something not good will happen to me. gotta do it. and besides, a lighter and sexier me looks much better right? :D okey. that will be all for NOW . il get back to you when i can think of some more. as if these 3 are not enough... :D goodluck to me!

i always blab about the things i love about being a mom and the things that changed when i became one. but i realized, all this time i've been brushing off the things that i missed and missed out . the things that i should be doing, the things that i could've done, and the things that i could do if i didn't become one. one of these things is traveling . every now and then i hear stories from relatives, friends, classmates, and acquaintances about their journeys around the country and around world. they show off pictures, videos, souvenirs and memories from these travels. some of them get to work at far and foreign places, experiencing other cultures, meeting other people, learning new things, exploring new things, experiencing anything and everything... living their lives . then i look at myself. i think of the things i have done things that i haven't accomplished things that ive wanted to do places that ive wanted to go experiences...

a lot fresher, right? i know, i know. his hair is a bit messy on that shot. he just finished doing some dives and flips on our bed. hence, the messy hair. but if he was behave, you can see that the haircut actually fits him. his face looks fresher, chubbier, and more manly (?). oh and, his scratches are starting to heal. i still have to apply some cream though, for them to totally heal. :)

FINALLY . after sometime, i finally found the extra time to actually bring ezra back to the salon for a decent haircut. for the past week or so, he's been starting to have allergic reactions to this long hair. it has already grown past his ears that they start to get itchy that he got some scratches in both ears. so this afternoon, we're heading to the salon to get him another fair cut. hopefully, all these scratches will heal and he'll feel better and a lot fresher. oh, and here's his latest look. if you noticed, the hair on the sides are touching his ears (some strands are even touching the "insides" of his ears). and this made his ears all itchy and irritated. and the bangs. i just made sure that they're on the sides, or else it'll cover his eyes. anyways, will be posting the "after" look. so stay tuned. ;D

t's quite amazing how it comes so naturally... the worrying the anxiety the uneasiness the pain and the FEAR when your little one is not in your arms. knowing you are not there, and will not be there when he learns a new game when he utters a new word or two when he laughs when he grows up and you're just not there. with him. all the time. oh, yeah. damn right im scared. but what scares and hurts me more is the fact that he still is a child with childish moments. crying and whining moments that none of the people around him could understand moments where he needs the patience, tolerance, and acceptance of a mother. but no, im not there. instead, he's left with an upset, irritated, hot-tempered, stay-at-home-for-the-moment-coz-he's-jobless babysitter. and just because he's a crybaby or crankier than most kids his age, that still doesn't give him or a anyone the right to discipline him (if you equate hitting/spanking with discipline!) their own way!!! i admit im ...